did i really do that

 i feel like nothing i do is real anymore. am i making it up?

I feel like everyone is better than me, but in a better way

 I don't envy these people. I actually feel like they deserve much better life than I do. I deserved what I got. I'm not as a good person as I may seem. I feel so alone in my world.

You may say I have everything - a loving friend, good friends. But that's not enough. This life is ruining me, but it is probably because I get what I deserve for what I've done.    

What have I done? I don't really know. All I know is that I feel that I fully deserve it.

There are a few things I know they were bad and hurtful. I still feel shame and regret to this day. THEY DON'T CARE.

SUCK IT UP. THEY'RE JUST PRETENDING. THEY WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND YOU, NO ONE WILL. I FEEL LIKE IM IN ANOTHER WORLD. WHERE NO ONE IS HERE. NO ONE. EVEN IF I DO THING SOMEONE IS HERE, IT ENDS UP THAT IM THE ONLY ONE WHO'S HERE. I AM SORRY. I AM SORRY. WHY AM I LIKE THIS. WHY CAN'T I UNDERSTAND OTHERS AND OTHERS CANNOT UNDERSTAND ME. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.

should i start counting down??

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apology

 Hi, I am incredibly sorry guys! D: I promised to post everyday, but actually I didn't :c. I forgot about this blog! Really! That's really awful, don't you think? I keep making mistakes...

I hope you will forgive me soon! <3

Airashi

i am empty

 I feel nothing, but emptiness. I feel like... I am this emptiness I feel. Do I exist? Am I real? I'm tired. I'm tired everyday, just please help me...

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Hello guys! Sorry for not posting a while :c. I will try to get better, I promise! By the way, I plan on renovating my blog, it will look much cooler! :D

I hope you guys are getting better at this quarantinne! :3

Airashi